Sekhmet came to me in a dream after a long silence between us. I took this to mean She was coming back to me. I had thought She was leaving me little by little. I’ve been making my small offerings of water, but I feel like I haven’t been a very good follower. She deserves something more than just water from me, and secondly, I haven’t really been talking or praying to Her consistently. If I am a follower, I am part of an agreement. She’s not there just so I an say I have a deity. She’s here for a reason, here to teach, and I am here to learn. When did I stop listening for Her lessons?
It’s time I refreshed my relationship with Her. It’s time to find out for sure where things lie. She came to me in a dream; that was a sign. What it means, I’m not sure, but either way I have to pay better attention. To the lessons and to my actions.
My intentions are to rekindle this relationship if it needs rekindling. Since Sekhmet was the first deity to come knocking at my door, I have to honor Her first before I can move on, if I need to move on at all.
She must know that Asherah has given me a nod, and certainly She knows about Bast. But I struggle to know what their place in my life is. Certainly they have lessons to offer, but I feel like I am very undedicated.
Perhaps I will work on putting together a devotional schedule so that I can maintain my connections with these deities in a way that I feel is more respectful.
For whatever it is worth, there are many devotees who feel that they are not doing enough. Sometimes, we get so caught up in the “this isn’t enough” that we can stifle the relationship or the religious growth and experience. Usually, if the deity isn’t harping on you to do more, you’re okay. Esp if you’ve got al ot of things going on and you don’t have an active contract to keep up.
During my busier times, I’ve fallen off of the face of the planet in regards to talking with my gods. Sometimes they get busy and don’t show up on my end for weeks at a time as well. Much like human relationships- they can ebb and flow, and that’s okay.
Be sure not to overload yourself with too much. Sometimes the simplest gestures can have the largest impact :3